^ AAAWWWEEE-MAZING book...i'm reading it for a class, but i'm not
reading it as if it was for a class, but more devotionally...and just
reading it is changing my life, i'm serious...every one of you should
get it...i've already written pages and pages in my own journal from it
welp, after 20 comments (geez louis, that is awesome...i haven't had
that many in who knows how long) and counting up the votes, talithakoum
is the winner! (which, i hate to break it to those of you who
picked thePottersclay, was prob. the one i was going to pick
anyways)...although i didn't realize that someone already has a xanga
called talithakoum, although they haven't updated since 2004...and
talitha_koum is taken too...BUT, i did learn that the actual Aramaic way for writing it looks like this:
ţlîthâ qûm
this was the Greek form of it that i put on my last post:
Ταλιθα κουμ
so, since i can't write it in the English way, or the Greek way, i'm
going to write it the Aramaic way (which is what i wanted to do in the
first place)....so, my new xanga will from now on be
www.xanga.com/tlithaqum...if you want, you can go ahead and subscribe!
i guess i ultimately had to pick it because the words Talitha Koum just have too much meaning in my life for me not
to pick it as my new name...plus its just really unique...it has
been going through my head the past week or so, ever since God showed
me it in His Word...Jesus says Talitha Koum, Talitha Koum, Talitha
Koum...over and over He whispers, little girl, I say to you, GET
UP!!!!!!! I did not die for you so that you would have to be dead
in your sin, your brokeness, your hurt....GET UP!!!!!! woohoo, i
love it =o)
^ i made this myself, for my computer...if you click on it, it
gets bigger so you can read it...and if you want, you can save it to
your comp. and use it too!
okay, anyways, things are going really well as of late...the Target job
is good, classes are good (although hard and a LOT of work), new
friendships are good, but most of all my relationship with God is so
stinkin intense...He blows my mind...i am now at the point of spending
several hours with Him each day pretty much....and sometimes its in the
prayer chapel....sometimes in my room...sometimes outside (speaking of
which, is still FREEZING cold...it snowed yesterday here!!! what
what? that is not how "we" roll...i am sooooo ready for summer and
heat)...anyways...God is just sweeping me off my feet...my head is
spinning, my heart is soaring....i feel like i'm falling in
love...well, actually, i am, but not with guy...i can't explain it...i
am CONSTANTLY in the intimate presence of God, and there is nothing
like it...its insanely freeing and life-altering...there is so much
peace...i've never had this much peace before...it literally transcends
all understanding (Phillipians 4:7)...and the only reason this has
happened is because i am constantly surrounded by the love of Christ
and spending so much time in prayer and His Word and just being still
and meditating on the fact that HE IS GOD
there is a LOT of brokenness in my life still (as with all of us)...
i've had to make myself and let myself be completely vulnerable to God,
which is really hard to do because we are all scared to be
vulnerable...our vulnerability opens up the door for more hurt...but
God wants to heal that hurt...and the healing for it hurts like crap
but feels good at the same time...does that make sense? hmm,
prob. not....the best way i can think of to explain it is to use an example from The
Chronicles of Narnia,
The Voyage of the Dawn Treader...Eustace
(who is the Pevensie kids' cousin) is not anything like Lucy or the
others...he is a child version of a Pharisee basically...they are all
on this ship, the Dawn Treader, going on an adventure to the End of the
World of Narnia w/ Prince Caspian (Susan and Peter are not w/ them
though)...they end up on this island and Eustace (awful British name
btw) finds a cave with treasure, and loves fancy smancy things, so he
of course takes a lot of the gold and jewelry and ends up putting this
one gold bracelet on, but he is really tired so he lies down to
sleep...he wakes up, and thinks there is a dragon in the cave with him,
but then realizes that
he is
the dragon, the monster...and the bracelet is cutting into him and
making him bleed, and he is miserable and drowning in his brokenness,
but still doesn't want to give up his Pharisee-like life...he ends up
going back to the ship and is still a dragon and cannot get this
bracelet to come off...he is so miserable he wants to peel his dragon
skin off too...one night, he is wandering the island, looking for
dragon food, and meets Aslan for the first time...and somehow, although
he doesn't know how for sure, he knows that Aslan is the only One who
can help him...so Aslan takes the bracelet off of him, and then he
begins to literally peel, with his Lion claws, the dragon skin off of
Eustace...but Aslan goes deeper and begins peeling off Eustace's own
skin...Eustace says that it hurts like hell (really, he says that in
the book...scuse the language though), but that it feels so good to
have all of that taken off of him...and Aslan keeps peeling away, until
Eustace feels His love and Eustace begins kissing Aslan and just stays
with him for a long while until Aslan leaves again...and Eustace is
completely changed...
so right now Aslan (Jesus in my world, haha), is peeling off those
layers of misery and sin and brokenness...and its the same w/ me as it was w/ Eustace, b/c it
hurts sooo bad, but still feels sooo good to have all of that junk that
has been there for so long peeled away...and just as w/ Eustace feeling
Aslan's love, i feel Jesus' love more
through this, and all i want to
do is stay w/ Him for a long while...and it is changing me and
making me a new creation b/c the old junk is leaving (1 Cor. 5:17)
i could say a WHOLE lot more, but i need to go eat and go to
class...soooo...i am not going to use my new xanga yet...i have made
it, but there is nothing there! it will look exactly like this
one, but i prob. won't post on it for another couple of weeks...i have
to have time to put the site together (which means copying/pasting
everything from this one over) and letting everyone know i changed,
like all my readers, subscribers, and subscribees...so, my next post on
here will probably be my last one for this site...so say goodbye to
blindedbyhim...i am now tlithaqum!!!! (i won't shut blindedbyhim down
though...i'll just leave it so all my old posts can stay)
yay =o)
JUST
9 DAYS til i come home to visit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! call me so we can get together while i'm there
once again, thanks for all the great votes!!! i'm excited about
doing this...but PUH-LEASE don't forget about me just b/c i'm changing
names!!!!
ya'll are awesome and i love you
peace out homey-g's....rock steady
